Egged On

Yes, I understand that it's hard for a little kid to sit still for long periods of time. I don't expect them to do that, especially during a Very Boring Mass. And, I also understand that kids are hopped up on all kinds of candy on Easter morning. But, the following sightings really pissed me off today:

• Punching.
  
• Crawling under seats.
  
• Running around/twirling dresses.
• Climbing up parents.
• Coloring.

All of these transgressions were committed by kids that were 4 or 5. In other words, they were absolutely old enough to know how to behave.

Of course, you want to go to Mass. It's Easter, and it's the only time of the year (besides Christmas) that you go. But, what kind of a message are you sending to your little darlings by letting them behave in a beastly fashion? Please note that I don't mind crying. Little ones do that. But, if you're spending all of your time playing cop to your kids, you aren't getting anything out of Mass either. Watch it on EWTN. Don't inflict them on people that are trying to worship.

/rant

Thoughts and Prayers

I wish that I knew how to pray.

No, that's not entirely true. I know how to pray... say the words or think the thoughts. Talk to God. Ask for help, forgiveness, patience, love, protection. Just do it and do it often.

The catch is that I'm not a person of faith. I don't think of praying automatically. And, when I do, I'm not confident that God listens. I've always taken somewhat of a Deist approach to faith, in that I believe that God loves us but doesn't necessarily intervene. He gave us brains and free wills and we have to use them to the best of our abilities. It bothers me enormously when people blame (or credit) God for everything that happens in their lives. Isn't that a bit arrogant? Instead, I ask for guidance and for what is best. When, of course, I remember to ask.

H is a man of tremendous faith. And, I work with quite a few people that are also people of great faith. I envy them that comfort. But, having that strong of a resolve isn't natural for me. Is it disingenuous for me to work to become a person of greater faith now that I really, really need the help and guidance? Or, is it something to aspire to?

Perhaps I should just say the words, think the thoughts, and listen.